In 1997. I was working full time, going to college for Electrical Engineering, married to a wonderful man, and raising two children, ages nine and seven. My husband and I both tried to juggle our busy schedules the best we knew how in love and patience. I became weary, exhausted and felt like something had to go. I thought it would be best for my family to quit college. The pressure was becoming too great to keep going at that pace with a heart of excellence to do the very best I could.
I was raised Catholic and did attend church regularly. My husband’s name is Arnie, and he also was raised Catholic, and went to Catholic School. We both had the mindset that being born and raised Catholic, and receiving the Sacraments was our assurance to heaven. My best friend invited me to her Non-Denomination Church when I was contemplating quitting college. She wanted to see me saved, and then have a relationship with God, so I could have peace, and strength to finish college. I remember her saying just come and listen to the band, and let God take all your burdens away. My husband was at a Nascar Race, so she convinced me to come and relax, and give my burdens to God. I remember my heart was touched by the Holy Spirit. The pastor had an altar call for salvation, and I thought to myself, I’ll say the prayer, and then according to the Pastor, I’m would be saved!
I remember leaving that church, buying a bible, but never having the time to read it, but when I did, it would be a few verses, and the bible was boring, and didn’t seem interesting. I did finish college in 1999, I and was promoted at my workplace, and things were working out great. . I continued going to the Catholic Church, raising my children in the Catholic faith, and life was good!!
June 2nd of 2003, I was diagnosed with leukemia, 99% of my blood was cancer. My entire life came to screeching halt, devastation upon me and my family. This diagnosis was fearful beyond belief, and my heart broken beyond words. My Grandfather died of leukemia when He was 38 years old. I was healthy, how could this be? I found myself absent from hope and thought my life is over. I so desperately wanted to see my children grow up! Material things no longer mattered to me. They were fifteen and Thirteen years old and they meant everything to me. My entire life passed before me, the good, the bad, the great times, and the events I would miss because of the leukemia. I had a few thoughts about heaven, hell, and really, where am I going? Is heaven real? I realized I didn’t read the bible, and I never really started a real relationship with Jesus. I didn’t talk to Him, or worship Him, I rarely thought about God. I just went through the routine of church. Would I need to know something in the bible? Will God ask me something I need to know about Jesus or heaven to get in? It was a mystery, and I was anxious and not so sure where I was going after I died? At 43, I never thought I would be asking myself these questions.
Day 2 my life was changed dramatically!! I cried out to God, fell on my knees, God if you are really real, please come into this room!! I was shocked, in an instant my family room was warm, and flooded with bright light, and I knew God was in the room. He filled my entire being with his presence, and I heard his gentle, but powerful voice speaking to my heart about Jesus Christ, and his love. God was real! Awestruck, God revealed Himself to me and the veil was removed!
I repented by saying, “I have ignored you my entire life.” Instantly revelation came, He knew everything about me. I just knew that, but never read the Word of God. I didn’t even know John 3:16 at this point. I’m in a desperate, and surrendered state, What a God we serve!!! The Holy Spirit gave me a picture of Jesus on the cross, bloody, arms wide opened, and a knowing came over me How much He loved me, and I knew with my heart, He hung on that cross in my place. He spoke to my heart about forgiveness, and how many hurt people there are in this world. He showed me a picture of the broken, the outcast, the sick, the orphans, and many hurt people in this world. Another picture came of people filled with evil, anger, bitterness, mean spiritied in their hearts. God whispered to me, “I’m waiting for my people to come to me so I can forgive, and love them, and heal their broken hearts. I couldn’t comprehend this kind of love!
I needed to forgive the offenses in my life that were buried in my heart. God set me free from the people who had rejected and abused me. By His amazing grace which was flowing through me, I let go of the past, and He empowered me to forgive, and to see Him with the eyes of my new heart. I was changed, and as the days unfolded I began to realize GOD HAD ORDERED MY STEPS, OPENED THE EYES OF MY HEART, and CALLED ME TO HIMSELF! I WAS EXPERIENCING THIS INCREDIBLE LIFE IN CHRIST.
Day 3, I got a phone call from my sister-in-law who is a Christian, attending Glad Tidings. She cancelled her appointments that day because God spoke to her about my life and she was to deliver this message to me. . This experience was so powerful to her! This was the Word that came from the God:
PROPHETIC WORD JUNE 3, 2003
Dear Tracey,
Hi, this is God. We’ve been in touch now and building our personal relationship for years. Now it’s time for us to go on a special journey. You are such a special person and I want you to do an important job for me. There are some people who need to know about me and how much I love them. You will be my messenger. I will be with you every step of the way, every minute of every day. I love you. Don’t be afraid. I’ll never ask you to do something we can’t do together.
I love you Tracey. Trust in Me!
God
My life was changed forever! I had hope, I was so excited, that God wanted me to be HIS MESSENGER! Well, I didn’t know any scripture yet, but I was experiencing the presence of God, and receiving God’s call on my life, to do His Will. I was so compelled by his love! It was hard to comprehend, three days ago, I was diagnosed with leukemia, Hope was back, and faith was arising in my soul. I opened up the Word of God, and the Word became alive, powerful, and it wasn’t boring, the words were flying off the pages. THE VEIL IS LIFTED! The Word of God was so remarkable, fascinating, I couldn’t put the Bible down. Simply, amazed and captivated by the Truth. Can’t the world see Him? I started reading hours a day, and the Holy Spirit was revealing Truth, the love of Jesus, and the infallible Word of God to my heart. My mind was renewed with Truth, instead of lies, and wrong thinking. I was finding treasures in the Word of God! What an inheritance the Lord has given us! So I am in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God that is our righteousness, holiness, and redemption. I’m boasting in the Lord! How come people are not talking about God and the bible? People need to know the glory of God in His Son, Jesus Christ. I was so blessed!! Fear left me, I was not afraid to die. Perfect love cast out fear. Day by day God was transforming me, I knew I wasn’t the same. His presence was tangible and I was and am on a journey to know him and share the Truth about God. The peace that transcends all understanding was flooding my soul. In the most devastating time of my life, joy was bubbling up out of my heart. I couldn’t comprehend, the Word manifesting in and through me. I was helping everyone around Me., sharing the Word of God. Friends and family were coming to see me, and expecting negative words, because they thought I was going to die of leukemia, but all I could talk about was God! He consumed my life. I knew every word in the bible was absolute Truth. The Lord became my life!
Within a couple of days, I was sharing the testimony of Jesus and God’s Word with doctors, nurses, family, and yes even believers! The Word was living in my heart, and I was passionate to share his radical, amazing love. The Lord gave me many gifts, but the gift to remember the chapter, and verse without memorizing as I shared with others utterly astounded me. Praise God, to Him be the glory! As the scripture says in 2 Corinthians 5:17, therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come; the old has gone, the new is hear! It was a new lifestyle! As I read the Bible, the Word of God was washing over my heart, setting me free, changing the way I thought about life, things, and everything else. He was changing my world as I knew it. I had such a hunger and thirst to know Him intimately! I would encounter Him through the Word, while I would sit in His presence. He would reveal his nature, his wisdom, and the plan He had for my life in ministry. He was revealing the Great Commission, Berks and Beyond.
I was healed of leukemia, and 9 months after I was diagnosed with leukemia, I was diagnosed with Leiomyosarcoma, a muscle cancer. This was a terrible diagnosis, they thought, a possible amputation of my leg would stop the cancer. I stood on the God’s Word with confidence, and just had an assurance of his promises, that I cannot explain. A gift of faith? I knew God was equipping me with the Word, and anointing me to preach the Gospel, to pray for the sick, and share the love of Christ everywhere even in the prisons. . Praise God! By the stripes of Jesus I was healed!! I will go anywhere, that God leads me. He leads and I will follow. God gave me such a heart for the ladies in the prison. I have seen God do what Man can’t do!! Holy Spirit sets these woman free from bondage, and He draws them to Jesus. It is remarkable! Salvation is the greatest Miracle!
If we see this glorious inheritance we have in Christ, we share Him, His Glory, and His magnificent Word that changes lives! Jesus Christ filled me with the Holy Spirit, and Fire, with power and boldness to preach His Word in Love, because God empowered me. Hebrews 1:7 says, God has made his servants to be Flames of Fire. His Word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot. (Jeremiah 20.9) When I preach the gospel, I cannot boast, since I am compelled to preach. Woe to me if I do not preach the gospel! (1 Corinthians 9:16) Apart from Jesus, I can do nothing. (John 15:5) As I abide in the Lord, His anointing teaches me about all things, and things to come.1 John 2:20,
Romans 11:29 FOR GOD’S GIFTS AND HIS CALL ARE IRREVOCABLE!